Lessons by Rebecca Scarf (29th Oct. 2011)

I've been thinking about all those times when the hurt became too great,

when I ran away into my head, into my world, just to make myself feel safe.

Some how I have to face this demon, somehow I have to win against my foes,

rise up to the heavens and chant my name, while I see them faltering below.

This wall around me, has been painfully built for many many years,

each new brick woefully triggered by each newly discovered fear.

Inside the wall, time has stopped and light cannot be found,

only one voice can be heard, the voice of fear is the only sound.

It grows and it gnaws, it fights and it rips my heart into shreds,

throwing up every bad thing, all the bad words that have been said.

Once again i'm under full attack, the nightmares become me and I am back there,

the times I felt most alone, the times I needed someone to care.

In that baron wasteland, there is no comfort, only the knives that dig in my skin,

cutting me, slashing me and bleeding me out, to rid me of all my sin.

The memories that have been on repeat, are set to start the loop once more,

reminding me again of everything that scared me all those times before

when I played with the fire, thinking I could win while my skin burned,

I have to take control, I must live forever 'till these lessons have been learned.

Trick or treat by Rebecca Scarf (For Cheryl, 21st Oct.2011)

Trick or treat, the joke is on you,
the fact that you hurt is seen by so few,
your heart is breaking right down the middle,
and a man is playing a sad song on his fiddle,
for that is how you feel right now.
You really shouldn't, you shouldn't allow
all your sadness to weigh you down,
forcing you to show others the tears of a clown.
For they don't see how deep you run,
all they see is the side that is fun,
it's not their fault they don't see your pain,
because you hide it away, again and again.
Please accept help from those around,
from us above and those on the ground,
for you have friends who want to help you,
but they don't realise they need a cue
from you to them, so they know how you feel,
they can put their arms around you and deal
with your problems, just open up and let them in,
so the healing can finally begin.

Universe by Rebecca Scarf (21st Oct. 2011)

The universe is so vast, that it makes you feel small,
but you radiate so much, please don't feel that at all.
For you are the light and you pull those in need
to you to help them, nurture them and plant the seed
that although life is transient, other things await after we are done.
You can do this because you know the warmth of the sun,
you are enlightend and worked hard to be that way,
you became spiritual and it was like starting a new day,
so look to the stars when you feel you are lost,
they will recharge you and melt that frost,
that sometimes arises inside your heart,
and makes you feel alone and sensitive to remarks.
You have more strength than you will ever know,
those times that you need it, it will show
yourself and others, that inside you are like a lion,
not just a convenient shoulder to cry on.
So remember to spread smiles and laugh,
and continue down your own path.

Missed Chances by Rebecca Scarf (21st Oct. 2011)

I wish I could change my life and tomorrow be someone else,
if only I could feel differently to how I have felt,
but deep inside me, a tumour has taken hold,
It's changed who I am, makes me shy when I want to be bold,
It drags me down when I want to shine,
all those missed chances, when the spotlight could have been mine,
but I fuel it with all my negative thoughts,
I am the spider and my own web has me caught,
I thrash from side to side trying to break free,
to burst out from this shell that isn't me.
I just can't do it yet, I lack the strength,
but one day I will, I'm sure it's meant.
So help me I beg with my mouth tightly shut,
bring me something special, bring me some luck,
I trust you in my heart, I just can't say it yet,
but you already know, on that I will bet.
So bring me your love and hope for the best,
for hope is really all we have left.

Leave something behind by Rebecca Scarf (14th Oct. 2011)

The sun has set and it's over now,
so grab your hat and take a bow.
The mist is swirling around your feet,
so leave your loved ones something to keep,
for although you will never really leave,
they will only feel you like a cool breeze,
and they will believe you have gone away,
some of them will not know you are ok,
because they refuse to believe in the eternal,
they have no faith yet in the external.
It will come but it all takes time,
you need some dark to see the light that shines,
so until then, leave them something of yours,
it will help to ease their soul when it's sore.
So take my hand and come with me,
I have many wonders for you to see.

Lighthouse by Rebecca Scarf (7th October 2011)

A lighthouse helps the boats out at sea,
a guiding light is what you can be,
family and friends always look to you,
to see if you can help, to see what you can do.
Like the lighthouse you shine alone,
it's how you are, it's how you've grown.
You can protect yourself, because you see so far,
looking down on life like a shining star.
From your tiny island you can see the water,
but safe in your cast you give it no quarter,
it beats against your cliffs but still you stand,
for no water could ever knock down dry land.
So stand tall and help those all around,
they are on the water looking for your safe ground.

Island by Rebecca Scarf (7th October 2011)

No man is an island, or so they say,
but each man is alone at the end of the day.
So reach out to those you love while you can,
lean on them when you are unable to stand.
Stay true to yourself and never forget;
who you are inside and never regret;
anything you did in your past,
because those memories are not meant to last,
they were just experiences that you had to learn,
it was just your time, it was just your turn.
You need to let it go to move your life on,
to get to a different place to where you are from,
the world will keep spinning whether you like it or not,
the sun will rise when you remove that block,
but it's in your hands and you know that to be true,
of joys in life you let yourself have too few,
so to help your life and for your own sake,
let all that go and give yourself a break.

Foot of the moutain by Rebecca Scarf (for cindy Sept 2011)

At the foot of the mountain, you must begin your climb,

but do not fret, all journeys have a starting time.

Remember going forward is better than standing still,

even when you feel its too much and have had your fill,

I am here to help you with your ascension,

but you must listen to me and pay attention,

all is not lost, that is never the case,

so do not worry, everything is safe.

I have come now to guide you through the woods,

to remind you to delight in life as you should,

for even deep in the forest there are many wonderful sights,

things of beauty that surround you with a powerful white light,

so you can see clearer the path put before you,

and can take stock of all those things that you need to do.

For while they are many and you worry what else lurks,

always remember that many hands make light work.

No title by Rebecca Scarf (2nd October 2011)

I think I might know what makes you run and hide,

from all that darkness you carry inside,

it eats at me, almost as much as it eats at you,

but there is nothing that I can do.

You don't let me help, you don't let me try,

you smile at me and I know it's nothing but a lie.

Still i return your smile and we pretend again,

for who do we turn to and who do we blame?

Things are done, they are done now,

that boat has already pulled up it's anchor and set sail,

so now we just make the best of it,

we look again and again for a quick fix,

which we know we will never ever be able to find,

so I just try to show you that life can also be kind.

I try to accept when you cannot see this,

because life isn't always going to be bliss,

we both know we haven't crossed any lines,

and that's how we get through this time after time.

Hold up by Rebecca Scarf (2nd October 2011)

I can feel my heart when it is about to burst,

I can feel when i'm going to die first.

I don't know if I am really aware,

that sometimes things are just not fair.

Put my head back in the sand and hide,

so I can't see as things start to slide.

Sometimes falling into that black hole,

is a benefit to my crushed and broken soul.

If I am alone, I cannot blame anyone else,

I took my head away, back into myself,

to a place the world cannot penetrate,

and left all those around me to frustrate,

and curse and worry over my actions,

leaving things broken and in fractions.

Mostly they say my problems are pathetic,

that it only troubles me, because I let it,

but who are they to watch and judge?

they only see the straight line and not the smudge,

no one will understand my crooked smile,

so just hold up, just hold up for a little while.

Powerful Core by Rebecca Scarf (for katy 23rd Sept 2011)

(Message from an egyptian guide drawn by Cheryl Wilkinson)

Imagine yourself lying on a long thin boat,
let your worries drift away, you can cope.
When life hands you troubles, it's a lesson to learn,
for your own good, even though it feels stern.
You are strong, like an age old tree,
a powerful core, seldom seen.
We know it's there, deep down inside,
let it out, don't be shy.
In the thick of the fog, a light will appear,
to guide your way and help you see clear.
Life will sometimes give you a different path,
to brighten your world and make sure you laugh.
So sometimes we have to begin again,
to leave behind any lingering pain.
So look to the future and smile once more,
for al the better things in store,
they are coming your way, so lift your head up,
and wait for all your new good luck.

Tiger by Rebecca Scarf (for Charlotte 23rd Sept 2011)

(Message from an Indian lady guide drawn by Cheryl Wilkinson)

Walk through the jungle with head held high,
climb to the top of the trees and look up to the sky,
for you are wise and can see all around,
hear even the smallest, hidden sound.
Built with knowledge, so you know who you can trust,
listening to you inner self is a must.
You have been here many times before,
yet still you haven't remembered all that you saw.
You can trust yourself, don't be afraid,
always stay strong beside the choices you made,
for they were right at the time,
and made you work hard and climb;
any mountains that are put in your way,
and made your voice strong, to communicate what you say.
So remember you are a tiger and stay strong,
for the path ahead is winding and long,
but it will be happy and filled with love,
from your friends on earth and us above.

Star by Rebecca Scarf (for Emmeline 23rd Sept 2011)

(Message from a nun guide drawn by Cheryl Wilkinson)

Little Star that shines high and so bright,
sending out help to those with a white light,
travelling through the sky at such a rate,
every step along the way given to you by fate.
Stay strong you will burn for years to come,
your star will burn brighter than the sun.
Never worry where you are going,
the water will keep on flowing;
ever forward, giving life as it goes,
reaching out to those loved most.
Let the water carry your troubles away,
to a new place and a new day.
Tomorrow you can wake up fresh,
see above the clutter and the mess,
look past any troubles, any bad times and strife,
I will always was and always will be here to help you in life.